I used to always feel like I was waiting on something. (I still do now but with a knowing that God always has better coming)
I was either waiting for a situation to get better, something to be healed, or for the next opportunity to come along.
When I was younger I had the patience of an ant. I always felt that if whatever I was waiting on did not happen in my time-table then I would do it myself.
Of course, back then I had no idea of what I was doing which always led to the situation or opportunity ending up being more of a mess than a blessing.
But, I still tried to do things on my own because I did not have faith enough to wait.
“But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.” Romans 8:25
In college I was always on the run. I was never satisfied with staying in one place for any period of time. I know I am not the only one.
I worked for a telemarketing company part-time while I was in school full-time and for the life of me I had not a clue of how lost and overwhelmed I was.
I did not put all my energy into one thing. My studies were okay but if I really sat down and applied myself I could have done so much better, yet I was impatient in the wait for the college life to be over. Always ready for the next thing, so I thought.
I concentrated on the end of school so hard that I did not take the time to enjoy just being a student.(And using that period in my life to make great connections in my field of study)
Are any of you guilty of either doing this now or have had a history like me?
Whether you are a student, employee, supervisor, teacher, stay at home parent or retired, we all tend to have a hard time being present within the day-to-day activity of excelling.
Before I left home for college, I was really in tune with my studies and honestly was in no rush for the time to end.
But, there was something about leaving home to be on my own and still conduct myself in a “student fashion” that had me a bit unsteady.
It was so easy to get sidetracked into hanging out with friends. Which honestly became way more appealing than deciding my future.
I just wish back then I could have had more faith in God than making many of the silly decisions for myself.
I know my impatience led to many set- backs and over time I began to understand that with God we can do anything, but fail.
Without him our temporary wants and needs will outweigh the much grander picture that God has for our lives.
“With patience a ruler may be persuaded, and a soft tongue will break a bone.” Proverbs 25:15
Have you ever heard the saying, “Patience is a virtue”?
Not understanding then that there was and is always growth in the wait, wisdom in the wait, and understanding in the wait too.
Faith is all about waiting because we are putting away needless stress and worry to believe in our Godly inherited outcome.
We are still working while we wait, but we are working in the realization that we are growing, and in our growth we gain a stronger faith backbone.
Life comes with phases. During each phase we are meant to get the tools and experience needed to be equipped to handle the next phase.
But, God will not move us until we gain all that is needed to handle and ultimately conquer each situation that we may face.
Looking back at my college years, I feel like they were at times empty busy moments. This is why we must learn each moment is a gift and an opportunity to grow in our purpose.
I am sure that if I was more patient then, I would not have had to struggle so much in my earlier years in realizing who I was meant to be.
“The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.” 2 Peter 3:9
Finally, I challenge you to build up more patience (even during COVID) and try to see the joy in the wait.
Whether you are waiting for a good report, the end of this Pandemic, a career move, a spouse or loved one to change, healing from illness; we must know there is much to learn during your wait.
Every moment is a piece to the puzzle of faith. Each opportunity adds to the bigger picture. Have faith in the wait and watch your life change for the better.
You got this!
Sincerely,
Terryn Horton-Morton
MODERN FAITHERELLA 